Well it depends on how early that delicious breakfast is served. Sorry but...I have to opt for sleeping in. My sleep means more to me than breakfast, which I often don't really want to eat when I wake up anyways. My stomach just can't handle a big breakfast. Usually before I head to work I eat a piece of fruit and something light, like yogurt. Today I actually did have a cooked breakfast, but it was small and light, consisting of tofu scramble with spinach and sliced tomatos. But yeah, I'd rather have my sleep LOL.

There are plenty of movies I that I can think of were really bad. Luckily I tend to watch the DVDs rather than go to a theatre so if it's bad, I'll just go and pull out the DVD and return it. And it's a bit cheaper than sitting through a ten dollar movie LOL.

One of the worst movies I ever saw ( I was told by friends that this movie was really bad, so even when it came out on DVD I waited to see it just because of what they said, and then I finally decided to get it) was Oliver Stone's ALEXANDER with Colin Ferrell and Angelina Jolie. Not only were the actors badly suited for their roles, but it was just one long boring, drawn-out stupid movie. Oliver Stone said that the reason his movie failed was because " America wasn't ready for a bisexual hero." No, we just weren't ready for such a crappy presentation of Alexander the Great, for such a poorly miscast set of actors and actreses, for bad acting, and for just it being so boring that I needed toothpicks to prop up my eyelids.

Is it possible that soon it will be 2010? I'm already thinking about that, and how this year has progressed. Certainly this year was full of ups and downs...it started out with me going to jail ( I'm sure most of my LJ friends remember that...January of 2009 started off with me making a phone call to my parents " I'm in jail!!"), then, my beloved Spartacus dying, with subsequent two other kitties, my gangsta boy Zeus and my mah-velous Russian Blue Mix, Marcus.
I swear I didn't think it could get any worse the first half of the year...work had been slow, I had been considering selling the house if my income wasn't improving and moving into a downtown condo ( nice, but not the same as a house).

But yet this year was full of ups as well...through all of my ups and down, all my LJ friends have been supportive ( though sadly, I lost two of the ones I felt I really respected, they did not feel the same about me...remember the Confederate flag fiasco here LOL? I made new friends and sadly lost them, and have made some vampire friends from the club ( the one who woke me up at all hours of the night to help her try to leave her meth-addled, abusive boyfriend pimp. )

The good parts of the year...business for the club increased, I had met Robert and for a brief while we had a good fling, and I got my two curio cabinets from him. I paid off my HUUUUUUUUUGE 15,000 Visa Bill just last month in October. NO MORE will the credit card companies take my interest. I threw out my credit card . I learned that my one and only cat, Spartacus' brother, has mourned the loss of his brother and found no contentment with any of them except maybe Zeus,,who died too soon, too soon. then Chester came along and it was instant war between Icarus and him....so much that I had to give Chester to a home where he fortunately is happier being the solo Don Corleone of the house. A

And so, it is just me and Icarus...and maybe....Bob, who said he is sending me a huge bouquet of Equadorian Roses (yes from Equador)today, and next year some time he wants to take me on a cruise.

The year begins in hell but progresses to a heavenly outlook

I see Icarus mu only cat much the way I see myself....as a sensual enigma.....

Well it would depend on what was troubling me...sometimes our friends understand more than our parents ever could. I personally communicate much better with online friends...it's easier for me in many ways to WRITE my feelings down, or what it is that is bringing me turmoil at a specific point in my life. So in that sense I definitely feel that I have a solid network of emotional support. I don't have many friends in 'real life' because I'm not comfortable with revealing too much to people I'm in contact with at work or in my neighborhood. I'm shy and private in my 'offline' life.

Ironically, then, for me I can communicate with those much better sometimes than people I've actually met or known in my real life, other than a very small handful of friends.


That being said, I also do share a great deal with my parents...but sometimes I feel so much more comfortable and content writing a journal entry here on LJ and sharing, or sending some personal e mails or inboxes.


LJ has been a gift to me, and everyone on it that I have befriended or who has befriended me...true treasures.

Absolutely. As a woman who has chosen to remain child-free and husband-less ( I was married once and knew that it wasn't for me, which is why it didn't last very long either) I feel that while some people don't exactly come out and say that they think it's weird or odd, I definitely get the feeling that when I say I never wanted kids ( I've known that since I was twelve) and that I enjoy my solitude being single ( unmarried and not in a relationship, and haven't been in five years), as an attractive female, it's mostly men who are like, " Why haven't you found anyone?" Or, when someone might ask if I'm married or have kids, I say, " No." And there's this uncomfortable silence or kind of a pause.

I don't necessarily feel 'ostracized' because I don't really give a shit about what people think, being comfortable with who I am...but it definitely makes a person stand out. I've also had single guys ( there's a 40 year old good-looking guy at my gym, for example, who says his married friends are always trying to set him up with girls) say that people tell them they better walk down the aisle. But a guy can be a roving bachelor til he dies, and with a woman, I think the pressure is definitely more intense to be with someone and have kids. In other words...a man can be a bachelor, but there's ugly words for single older women...spinster, old maid, etc. I haven't heard bachelorette used.

I'm also the only single female who owns a house in my entire neighborhood here, everyone else is married, senior citizen ( and married), and or have children. When women I've met in the neighborhood or at the gym ask me if I have kids, and I say no, you might as well forget about being included in their social activities, which largely revolve around their kids. More power to them, but I have very little in common with them other than being female after that question is answered about kids. And it doesn't help that everywhere you look, all these celebrities are toting their kids with them.

Recently there was an article where the question was asked " Do you think a woman can live a fulfilling life without marriage and kids?" Half the people polled said yes, and half said no, evenly split.

Here's a few common responses though:

Q:" Don't you ever get lonely?"

A: Not really. I can be alone and be happy, or I can be with a person and be unhappy, and I'm not going to settle for less. I'd rather be alone. Alone means solitude, not 'loneliness'. I'm around people constantly at work, and I have no desire to be that way when I get home or go into my own world.

I think society expects that women in particular should get married and have kids, because those things have defined womanhood for so long. No matter how liberated our society claims to be, that's still something that is expected of women. It's getting better in terms of attitude towards solo women but there's an underlying message that even today, somehow you're the oddball out if you are single and female and loving it. People just can't seem to comprehend that being alone is a good thing. And being a private person at that.

And another stupid question..." How come you haven't found a nice man to take care of you?"
A: Well I take care of myself. I don't need his damn money. It would be nice to have my bills paid, but it ain't happening.

" What's a pretty girl like you doing without a man?"
A: Well um, maybe partly because I'm sick of people asking me that question and not respecting my personal boundaries and I'm happy without a man, not needing to be part of a whole to feel complete as a woman??



Hey, I have nothing against relationships, marriage and kids...those things are valuable and they are central to many people's lives. But not mine.

It's amazing what happens when you spend a week without taking your normal vices ( I don't know if a sleeping pill prescription counts as a vice, but if it gives you a kick and you enjoy it, then it's a vice...caffeine, definitely LOL) and then you don't sleep properly. My body was just running on empty all week. It's scary to think about how little sleep I got, and how your body breaks down when you don't get enough, period. As much as I work out and train, that's not a good thing. I felt myself literally coming down with a cold a few days ago and I immediately upped my vitamins ( the best stuff in the world that seems to cure any onset of a cold, for me, anyways, is this fizzy drink called EMERGENCY C...it comes in lots of tasty flavors but I like raspberry). I take a couple packages of that and mix it with water and it seems to do some wonders for me.


So yesterday I came home from the gym ( I had no energy to work at the club and it's been dead from what the other girls have told me) and crashed...I mean I literally just passed out and slept for 13 hours. I heard nothing. The fire alarm could have gone off and I probably would not have awoken. My cats were wondering " Is she dead?? Who's gonna feed us??" I didn't hear the cell phone ringing ( and I have the ringer set on loud). When I woke up, I thought, oh, that clock must be mistaken...it's must be morning...but NO...it was this afternoon and already getting dark.)


Well hell...I needed my sleep. I went through this whole week like a extra-tired zombie who didn't even have the energy to terrorize anyone.

There's so many good albums from the past out there that I could listen to, but I'd have to say that it would be AC/DC's Back in Black. Classic metal right there. That, and a close second would actually be something completely the opposite...a CD of Favorite Opera Love songs. :)

I'd say I definitely am happy at my job at the gym mostly because of the rewarding experience I get from helping people to get fit and get in shape. I like motivating others. By making others feel good about themselves, I get a good feeling from that. I also have the choice of who I want to train as well as a flexible schedule.

My second job...well you know what that entails...I would say that if I'm not jumping for joy about it, I'm happy with the money that it allows me to earn and I wouldn't do it if there wasn't some element of magic still left in it. Again, flexible schedule is the KEY words here....I can go in when I want, any night or day of the week or weekend.

Initially, I'd say though that my ultimate dream job is just to be a freelance writer. It's hard to make a living ( well, maybe it's just that I'm not willing to be on an income that won't allow me to sustain my current lifestyle) doing that...at heart, I definitely think I'm a bohemian...I don't like other people telling me what to do or being my 'boss'...I am and have always wanted to be my own 'boss'. Ideally, I would love to just sit at my computer with a cup of cocoa, my slippers and sweats, and just write.

* stolen from Talonvaki* :))

1) Post a list of up to 20 books/movies/anime/TV shows/video games/bands etc. that you've had an obsessive fannish love or interest in at some time in your life.
2) Have your flist guess your favorite character/member from each item.
3) When someone guesses correctly, strike through the item and put the name of your favorite character next to it.




Hmm. Well...I either am totally obsessed with something or I'm not...there are very few things where I think they're just 'okay' or whatever. If I get obsessed then I get obsessed in every way and start collecting ( you guys know this LOL) stuff like crazy from the movie, joining fan sites and all that stuff. I have to admit though, out of all the obsessions I've had in terms of movies or books, the Pirates of the Caribbean obsession has lasted the longest...now going on three years. That fandom was actually the reason I had found Live Journal, through Yahoo's POTC fan group/fanfiction.

My list is a mix of movies, bands, and books.

1. Pirates of the Caribbean
2. Lord of the Rings
3. Star Wars
4. Watership Down ( movie AND book) * Hey Talonvaki great minds think alike LOL *

5. Disney's Hunchback of Notre Dame
6. Berserk ( anime series/comic)
7. Clive Barker's Hellraiser
8. John Carpenter's The Thing
9. Shadowland by Peter Straub
10. Flowers in the Attic ( the older VC Andrews series)
11. AC/DC
12. Ozzy Osbourne
13. Van Halen
14. Erasure
15. Iron Maiden
16. Elizabeth ( with Cate Blanchett)
17. Warner Brothers Cartoons ( the really violent ones)
18. Pac Man
19. Donkey Kong
20. Phantom of the Opera

Well that's a tough question for me, seeing as how I hate reality tv. Did anyone ever stop to think that reality tv IS NOTHING LIKE REALITY?!

That being said, in all honesty, for the amount of money I receive as a personal trainer per hour..( it would be hypocritical to ask for more) .I'd have to say that I would like to be on THE BIGGEST LOSER as a trainer for the people who come on that show to lose weight and get in shape. It takes GUTS and COURAGE to stand there and be weighed in front of an audience, let alone show your body under the glaring studio lights and wearing spandex.

Oh trust me...I'd shout it real loud to let everyone ELSE know too. " HEY____ ya got spinach between your teeth...it looks pretty bad, like algae."

CHILLING AT HOME!!!!!

The rudest thing someone came up to me and said was " Is it true that Oriental people have terrible driving skills because they eyes are slanted amd they can't see to see straight?"


To my response... I asked " Is it true white people can snort up more cocaine than Asians because y'all hill billy noses are so much bigger than my nose? Like, for example, Marry Manilow could be able to snort all of Columbia's cocaine in one swell snort.

Okay...this is enough to make me snap out of my tiredness from lack of sleep. It's my rant for the day. This is one of my BIGGEST pet peeves.


I cannot fucking STAND it when someone says " It's not my job" when it comes to everyday simple things to do that DO NOT HAVE TO BE PART OF YOUR FUCKING JOB TITLE to just be considerate of other people, period. And ESPECIALLY if you're a volunteer, like at a pet clinic where it's ALL of our duties to do ALL the things necessary to help out the pets. As a volunteer, your DUTY is to make things easier for everyone else. Don't give me shit about it's not 'your job' to clean the litter boxes and it's 'not your job' to make sure the bleach bottles are filled with the proper mix of water and bleach.

And to those people who NEVER bother to put fresh toilet paper and leave the fucking roll with no paper on it, or don't bother to make another fresh pot of coffee...or leave your dirty fucking garbage on the table so someone else can 'throw it away' when the garbage can is TWO FEET AWAY from you...here's my saying: the world WOULD BE a lot nicer if people like yourself would stop being so fucking lazy and just do the right thing because you're being a good person and no, not because you're getting 'paid' to do it or expecting tons if thanks. JUST DO IT...to be courteous, to be a nice person, period.


Now, my rant is over.

Okay....if you can believe this, my very first paycheck job was working at a children's shoe store...Stride Rite, at a local mall where I grew up. And that ironically was the place I used to get my shoes as a kid. I remember the minimum wage...heck, I thought 3.25 was a lot of money back then :P

No. There are things science cannot explain. I'm a superstitious person and I also don't believe in luck or coincidence or chance...I think things happen for a reason, and science can't explain things like that. Only the spirit, heart, and soul can.

Wow...I don't remember too many commercials from when I was a kid...but the one that I can think of right now was this commercial that said GIVE A HOOT, DON'T POLLUTE...so maybe even back then I was kind of LOL an environmentalist or whatever. I forgot what the name of the owl was.

The next commercial I remember most was the Life Cereal commercial where the little kid's brother says something like " Hey Mikey, he likey" or something like that.

All of it would be distributed equally among three places here in Reno where I live: the SPCA, the Humane Society, and Feline Rescue. I am not into people charities, but animal charities.